When you know who you are, know what you are about, you know what you need.

I grew up as the oldest of 3 siblings and I am often curious to reflect on our relationships to one another as I grow older.

I have rarely felt like the oldest child. My youngest sister is gorgeous and has a good 5 inches on my height. She has gained the kind of attention I merely daydreamed about at her age; which is very funny to me sometimes. Despite our significant age gap, we are encountering some of the same life experiences. Her perfectly timed blossoming and my late debut has given us an invitation to bond over similar things.

My brother is the award-winner. Back home, in my little town, I am known as Scott’s sister. There was a great deal of self-sacrifice in this and a limited knowledge of self-care. So much love and pride in Scott making strides to achieve his dream was rewarding as well as stunting in [my] identity growth.

When I first moved to this area, it was so new to me to introduce myself and I realized that I am –first and foremost– me. My identity is not attached to Scott or his well-known achievements. Everyone that I met would get to know me for who I am and not know a single detail about my life prior to that moment of meeting. It was terrifying and liberating all at the same time.

When this happened so suddenly, I discovered that I had no idea who I was. When you know who you are, know what you are about, you know what you need. … So I had no idea what I needed. This process of discovery has been like a roller coaster, a yo-yo, a captivating drama, and an ambivalent story.

And it continues to lead to this:

I am Bridget. 

And I dance tango. I dance to feel everything.

And I love to share my life in this way. Everyday.

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