Why Fall is the perfect season for Letting Go
“Fall is upon us. Let us stop and take a moment to reflect on the things that we are holding on to that do not sustain us anymore. Give yourself permission this season to be like the leaves falling from the trees and just LET GO. Let go of old clothes.
Let go of clutter.
Let go of negative thoughts.
Let go of unhealthy behaviors.
Let go of toxic relationships.
Let go of expectations.
Let go of fear.
Let go of doubt.
Let go of anxiety.
Just simply, let go.”
I first read this beautiful, life changing sentiment three years ago. It was the first weekend of Fall in 2011, and a loved one posted it on her Facebook page. It was exactly what I needed to read at that time in my life, and it remains a constant reminder each Fall.
For a majority of my 30’s (I am turning 39 on October 30th), I have dealt with the heartbreaking, isolating world of infertility. It is a journey that I still can’t believe, at times, I have been on and even more so, healed from; though I do not know if I will ever be 100% recovered from. It was a road that took me by storm, full of loss, doubt, pain, and emotional turmoil and physical (from all the hormone meds) havoc on my body and soul.
The spring of 2011 was my breaking point. When my IVF failed, following many heart-aching losses, I fell to a low that was agonizing to get up from. After weeks of suffering, months really, I saw the “letting go” post. I knew I needed to make a choice. I could continue to hold on to a life of negativity, pain, and “why me?” or “let go” and begin to experience joy and life again. I chose to let go; I chose to live.
This awakening did not come easily and there were bumps, bruises, and setbacks along the way, but with each moment that passed, every pregnant woman I encountered, and every baby I met, I slowly started to smile and feel love and joy again.
It was at this time in my life, that I became fascinated with the world of health and wellness. I became mindful of how I lived my life, appreciating the gifts nature gave us, and finding gratitude in life’s simple pleasures. It was at this time, that I became completely engrossed in my yoga practice. I have been practicing yoga since the late 90’s, but it was during this moment in time, that I began incorporating it into my daily life. For the first time, I did not do yoga for the mere sake of how my body felt during and afterwards, but I practiced yoga because it lifted my soul, connected me to others, and helped me spread love, kindness, and compassion to all beings. Looking back I have immense gratitude for this experience and for the undying love, support, and patience of my loved ones-especially my husband.
As wonderful as this may all sound, old habits, old feelings, and old thought patterns still surface. At times, for a moment, it is still hard to hear somebody is pregnant. At times, for a moment, it is still a struggle to be around a pregnant woman. At times, for a moment, I still “hold on”, rather than “let go”. And at times, for a moment, I notice that asana is the hardest part of my day. “Letting go” is a constant practice; a constant challenge.
So, I welcome Fall. I welcome the sentiment from the beginning of this blog as a reminder in my life to “let go” of what doesn’t serve me, and remind me to be present in the gratitude and joy of the now. I truly believe we all have “crosses to bear”; EVERYONE has gone through, or is going through, something in their life causing pain and suffering. However, if we can remember to think of the leaves falling from the trees, letting go, and give ourselves permission to do the same, then perhaps it may open us up to glorious new beginnings.
“Letting go is the hardest asana.” ~Anonymous